I know you will say that there’s no love like this. Not a single word uttered, but you didn’t notice that the actions showed. I am a loser, a typical one, for I have lost the ability to say the word, for I’m so scare to show, and I thought you’d understand. 

You simply give an excuse saying that you don’t know what you want. It shows that I was the about right one at an about right time, or perhaps, it’s just a way of saying ‘you are not for me’. Finally I understand, when a person doesn’t love you anymore, everything you do it annoys him. I remained silent when I looked at you. A million words would not bring you back, I know because I tried; neither would a million tears, I know because I cried.

What should I do when the person who promised to fix your heart but break it into a thousand pieces? When I gave it to him, it was half dead and I said ‘hold on nicely and carefully, once you break my heart, my world will fall apart’. Yet he did it, and now he comes back acting like he cares. He doesn’t realize that from the day he decided to let go, he’d lost the privilege of being part of me. I don’t need to be pitied. 

I’m silly to think that he loves me, loved him back and and let him tearing me. I will not let anyone sees, how my broken heart is hurting me. I have my pride and I know how to hide, I will only do my crying in the vain. I’m alright, when I stop writing, it’s the day I start forgetting.

You’ve lost something that you’ve always gripped tightly on. Without a word, without an effort, and you’re always guilty before the trial. You should have known from his eyes, there’s no passion, there’s no love. Perhaps this is the moment he has been waiting for. Now that he doesn’t need a chance from you, he said ‘Com’on I’m done’!

You are never someone he wants, you are just an about right person at an about right time. Why tear? Life goes on. It’s a tight slap on your face, he tells you that he struggles yet you keep pushing. No matter what he does, you are never satisfied. You are only good for being alone you see.

Don’t you remember all his promises. He’s lying when he said he’ll not make you cry. Who was the one insisted to work things out? He doesn’t know that you’re gonna be darn serious, because you act like you don’t really care. Right now your protection color had ruined you, while others say that you have to be strong, you don’t even have the luxury to cry.

Domokun, you shall not cry. He doesn’t want you anymore, and he won’t be coming and bringing you for a ride. He’s not gonna bathe you, talk to you nor look at your dance. You have to live strongly, no one is indispensable, and from now on, you are mute.

I bet you. He’s totally forgotten.

The more i am with them, the more i feel that they are not of my kind. They dun have the qualities i have and i bet that they start to feel it too, i am not part of the crew. All i can see is the ugly side of them, probably vice versa. I have my pride which doesnt allow any little abasement, while things that they do made me doubt of the value of mine.

They r always on the other side of mine, often opponents, and i cant help but fight endlessly. Losing is another incident that adds to my disgrace list. I know i ought to walk out, for that i’m not strong enough to victimise them.

But soon, i will be back, and all of u, will no llonger my friends.

Seriously, there have been so many chances given and yet nothing has changed. So what if you think you are a loser? Did you win over me because I have to give you another chance? How many times I have to tell you the same damn thing? Eh please. You are matured enough to handle all this, in fact, people at your age are doing big things already. Why do you have to move a little only after I have pushed so hard? It’s not easy for me you know, I’m never better off. I can’t say that word today, but I’m gonna let it out here, ‘I’m disappointed.’

For my own sake, I ought to give you a due date. Say, by end of this year? And the benchmark is 20% of improvement. I promise myself this, it’s silly to hold on a loss-making investment.

I have no idea on what i’ve told her, probably some secrets, about the person i’ve truly loved. I know it’s impossible for me to get back to him, it doesnt matter how much i care about him, it doesnt matter how much i love him. He’s gone for good, walked out of my life.

The only thing that i recall was the way i drove after drinking, i dont know whether i’ve hit a dog or a cat or not. It was the very first time i feel the danger, the car was shaking even i’ve used all my mind to control it from drifting. I was lucky that i did not meet an accident.

After so much of things, i find it hard for merely staying alive. At this stage, it’s difficult to breathe, hence i just remain silent. I wish one day, they will be regretful for what they have done to me.

今天在逛街时看上了一双鞋子, 好喜欢好喜欢, 只可惜不合尺寸, 怎样也不可能穿得下, 宁可放弃也不愿折磨自己双脚. 离开时临别依依, 暗暗懊恼, 总觉得或许我该妥协跟它拼了.

爱情也不是这样吗? 得不到的时候, 会认为如果我们可以在一起, 那将是世界上最幸福快乐的事. 人们常常都会犯这样的错, 只顾着去惦记曾经的东西, 忘记了眼前值得珍惜的事情. 其实如今拥有的也不错嘛, 何必念念不忘那过去的, 只有开花, 不会结果的呢?

一个人久了, 是会上瘾的. 有着缅怀回忆的坏习惯, 喜欢比较现实和幻想, 一直沉迷于心头好, 美化了记忆, 仿佛真相本应是如此安排的, 以为自己一个人生活没什么不好. 真是无可药救啊.  偏偏, 我就是那样执着的一个人. 哈哈哈哈.

我抛弃我自己了, 谁要把我拾回来?

Love comes first? Or your ownself comes first? A lot of time many people persume that love is selfish and it is all about yourself. However, I believe for those who have been in love, they understand that love is about sacrifaction. The more you care for somebody, the more you are willing to do things for the other at your expense.

Does that means, entering into a relationship getting us into bonds? Owh you have to be responsible, you have to think in his shoes, you have to make him happy but not bringing him troubles. Well, are we borned to be someone’s the other half? We have priorities in life too; family and friends, careers, hobbies, and also our dreams. Jump out if you realise that you have given up too much for the boyfriend. We don’t expect to be treated well when we are torturing ourselves as humans take things for granted.

It’s not in law stating that you must think of your boyfriend first when you see something nice, ‘Eh I wanna get this for him he sure gonna like it!’ <– hey girl this is so lame. We are not ought to see them greater than us. You know how silly were you when efforts gain no returns. No I am not talking about love, and I didn’t say that this is the way to love. I merely say that, we should pamper ourselves more in a relationship. No strings attached when you are not ready to settle down. Finding a ready-made man is much better than investing on a childish boy hoping that one day he will be the prince.

It’s great to be single, and it’s wonderful to stay single. Kampai to all the freemans in the world!

Many people think that I’m materialistic to say such a thing, some say I’ve humuliated the true love, money can’t buy love. But tell me, how could a couple survive without money? It is a very good tool to build up romance and happiness. Imagine, a guy bringing the gf to some road side stall on their anniversary. No matter how understanding the gf is, i bet she hopes for better. If a girl has dressed up nicely prepared for a candle light dinner, yet end up messily in a dirty Dai Chao with oil all over her face, you don’t expect her to be contented or understanding. Yes, being poor is not a guy’s fault, however, not putting in effort to work for better is certainly his fault. You want your gf to be highly educated, courteous, pretty, soft-spoken, everything, but you there feeling alright to be just a mere pass or even worse, a fail?

‘Oh well that’s me and she knows about that when she first get together with me.’ Perhaps a guy would say that. You don’t think that she should be complaining since she knows that it is a fact. Tell you what, a girl really doesn’t want luxuries, she wants happiness. Any tiny little thing can make her happy, be it cheap or expensive. All she wanted is that she can be proud of her man, proudly introduce and announce to the world that this man, is her mate for the rest of her life, not someone she can barely talk about with friends.

Isn’t it awful to ask your gf to pay the expenses when going out? Frankly I would look down on those guys. If you think that she is earning more than you and thus she should be paying, please ask yourself, why should she be stucked with you? Why wouldn’t she stay single and enjoy all the courting? You are unable to take care of her for the rest of her life, why on earth she should waste her time with you? It’s all because of love, only silly girls thought money doesn’t matter as long as it can make her man happy. She thought maybe he’ll change one day, maybe one day he will be hardworking and have a bringht future. Don’t break her heart, don’t crash her hope, don’t think that she left you because you have no money, it’s just that she has had enough. A guy will never know how disappointed a girl is when she needs to pay for his bills. Remember, couples are not related in blood, they are just related in the sense of the spiritual love, she has no obligations to spend her hard earn money on you.

Don’t tell her that you are sorry, and you love her very much. Too much sweet words get her jaded. A fool learns too. What? This is unfair for the men? Oh yeah we can never strive a balance out of it. Promise her a future if you love her. I say this not because I am greedy, I am just RICH and hate being rich. =)